So this past weekend did not go so well for me. I gave into something I swore I would never do again and then promised myself I would stop. The next day instead of giving in I cut to release the feelings I was having over my actions the day before. I had been cut free since March and one little slip up ruined it. I am scared that people will find out especially my treatment team at Hershey. If Gail knows there is no way she will ever discharge me from her care and let me see my pediatrician for medicals. I have gotten sneakier this time. I have chosen a better hiding spot for my cuts and a different tool to use. I know this is so bad to do, but I can't help it. My OCD is taking control of this and all I can think about is cutting now. I was doing so well too. My eating disorder is doing well recovery wise though. I am following my meal plan and my exercise is not excessive for the first time since probably seventh grade.
On a positive note I have started collaging again! I will try to upload some of my collages to show you guys
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